Post by WONDER WOMAN on Dec 7, 2014 19:07:51 GMT 10
OK, operation save Starfire and make up for my extreme procrastination within the next two hours starts... NOW!
The fact is, I'm dead tonight. I was dead tonight if I worked it, probably, but I'm definitely dead now. I've been in tight spots before, but there's always been an option to take, a schism to exploit, and people to mold. But I've been a lazy shit since the merge, and so rule number one - message everyone, all the time - went out the window and now I'm utterly screwed, and it's mianly my fault.
Not being able to vote has seen friends get booted, or at least potential friends. It has got me to the jury, sure, but it's also made actually winning an impossible task.
The double boot didn't help, and it was somewhat poorly designed to be fair. Giving everyone two votes ensured that whichever side had the numbers, and had them in part because of the success in the challenge of their allies, was going to lose two people and basically make a pagonging a higher probability than normal, and I'm kind of surprised it was included in the game, cos... well, it's made things boring. ANyhoo, it did happen, and I lost two options, and I didn't work hard enough to build more. So it is my fault, but it was also a pretty tough circumstance to find myself in.
The only real effect of the idol being active on my play is that I've toyed with the idea of people being paranoid that I have it, and that's why I'm being so defeatist on this vote. But ultimately someone else has it, and they probably have told others they have it, and so that plan's cooked before it got started really. Plus, even if it did work, the vote wouldjust be split onto me and Scarlet anyway and I'd still go home.
So, basically, I need to find the numbers in the next two hours. Somehow. And it just isn't likely at all. But... I can send some messages, if I get desperate enough, I can shift it onto Scarlet maybe, and buy myself one more round. But even with that extra round, the endgame is a long long way away.
Real life has been quite exhausting, also, which has really shaped my desire to be here. We've been going for a while now and I think I'm a bit burnt out by the game, and it's not really providing as a diversion from reality, so I think I might just have to be proud of what I achieved up to the merge, and accepting of what I didn't after it. I do think if a couple of things had gone my way I could have won this game, but they didn't, and I din't do my best to try to make them go that way either, so... shucks.
Jury is awesome though, really. In a game as big and complex as this one, being around to the very end in one way or another is quite an achievement. It sucks that I'm probably going to whimper out of the game, but I at least know I made it a better one when I was trying to make it a better one, and hey... it's not over just yet.